I keep reading this over and over, and each time I feel like a different part of my mind, spirit, and heart get touched. I can feel you writing from your heart so deeply. And it's amazing the way you've weaved together so many of the individual and collective voids we feel right now, and how the concept of mothering is such a powerful one, in how we may care for ourselves, one another, and the planet.
I also connected with the may layers of what you're experiencing right now, and how you are navigating the desire and longing for motherhood, with the acceptance that right now is not your time (by choice, or by universal design). Personally, I am in a very similar place. I too had a relationship end at 36, I too am experiencing a wild number of friends having babies (I'm in MealTrain-land lol), and I'm experiencing the complicated and uncomfortable emotions of feeling so much love and happiness for my new-mom friends, while also feeling the ache of longing to have that be part of my journey *now, while holding the uncertainty, hope, and faith that it will happen at some point in the future. I too have also returned to my mom's home for a time :). I too am feeling that a beautiful rebirth is coming, and the immense pull of a force of change and possibility, even in the darkness of some of my realities, and the collective realities we're facing. I've also been having a lot of conversations with new mothers who had their babies in their 40s, and women who have are on the single-mothers-by-choice path. It's opened a lot of new worlds and insights that are both comforting and empowering.
It can all feel isloating at times, and I know I'm just a stranger that reads your work, but know you're not alone.
Amen amen Naomi! As an aspiring mother also witnessing the apocalypse this resonates so deeply. Sending prayers and love as you courageously face the void, I'm awed by your ability to see the flowers in the dark.
I have to say I really adore your writing, I always feel so aligned with it in quite a spooky way! I think you are a beautiful writer and I appreciate you sharing. I personally don't know how to reconcile with how the world is right now. But I also believe in endless hope. Your writing asks such important and poignant questions and shares wise balms for the soul.
I'm going to share back if that's ok, I've just come out of a 3 year relationship (Im 34) and I have endometriosis which has been a struggle for years. When I worked as a cleaner in a hospital in the pandemic, for some reason got asked constantly if I have children, and made to feel weird/old for not having any. I don't know if being a mother is my destiny, but your writing has just spoken of wombs so beautifully, it eases my dis - ease I've been feeling for a few years. A massive majority of my friends had babies in lockdown, completely and unexpectedly changing the landscape of my life. It's an overwhelming and confusing time with lots of big feelings.
It sounds like you are so adept at seeking out the love, knowledge and creativity you need to navigate the world especially if you're feeling rocky x
I keep reading this over and over, and each time I feel like a different part of my mind, spirit, and heart get touched. I can feel you writing from your heart so deeply. And it's amazing the way you've weaved together so many of the individual and collective voids we feel right now, and how the concept of mothering is such a powerful one, in how we may care for ourselves, one another, and the planet.
I also connected with the may layers of what you're experiencing right now, and how you are navigating the desire and longing for motherhood, with the acceptance that right now is not your time (by choice, or by universal design). Personally, I am in a very similar place. I too had a relationship end at 36, I too am experiencing a wild number of friends having babies (I'm in MealTrain-land lol), and I'm experiencing the complicated and uncomfortable emotions of feeling so much love and happiness for my new-mom friends, while also feeling the ache of longing to have that be part of my journey *now, while holding the uncertainty, hope, and faith that it will happen at some point in the future. I too have also returned to my mom's home for a time :). I too am feeling that a beautiful rebirth is coming, and the immense pull of a force of change and possibility, even in the darkness of some of my realities, and the collective realities we're facing. I've also been having a lot of conversations with new mothers who had their babies in their 40s, and women who have are on the single-mothers-by-choice path. It's opened a lot of new worlds and insights that are both comforting and empowering.
It can all feel isloating at times, and I know I'm just a stranger that reads your work, but know you're not alone.
Much love
(Free Palestine <3, Free us all <3 )
Amen amen Naomi! As an aspiring mother also witnessing the apocalypse this resonates so deeply. Sending prayers and love as you courageously face the void, I'm awed by your ability to see the flowers in the dark.
fellow 36 year old here. thank you for naming so many of the feelings, thoughts, experiences of living these questions ❤️🔥
Thank you for sharing these brave and beautiful thoughts, you are not alone 💐
Thankyou for this beautiful text.
Profound and so acutely aware, it is your heart we hear speaking. Your voice is beautiful in every way. XX
I have to say I really adore your writing, I always feel so aligned with it in quite a spooky way! I think you are a beautiful writer and I appreciate you sharing. I personally don't know how to reconcile with how the world is right now. But I also believe in endless hope. Your writing asks such important and poignant questions and shares wise balms for the soul.
I'm going to share back if that's ok, I've just come out of a 3 year relationship (Im 34) and I have endometriosis which has been a struggle for years. When I worked as a cleaner in a hospital in the pandemic, for some reason got asked constantly if I have children, and made to feel weird/old for not having any. I don't know if being a mother is my destiny, but your writing has just spoken of wombs so beautifully, it eases my dis - ease I've been feeling for a few years. A massive majority of my friends had babies in lockdown, completely and unexpectedly changing the landscape of my life. It's an overwhelming and confusing time with lots of big feelings.
It sounds like you are so adept at seeking out the love, knowledge and creativity you need to navigate the world especially if you're feeling rocky x
So relatable, every word. So beautifully written and spoken. Thank you for sharing Naomi <3